52 Weeks of 52: Week Four

February 19, 2020
Week Four

I've been around this earth

for about 19,000+ days

and there are just some things

that I know--

for sure

without a doubt

hands down

pinky swear--

know in the  

depths and deepest part 

of my heart.

I know obvious things like

I like coffee (ok, love)

I am at home near water
with my toes in the sand

Office supply stores make me giddy

I geek over word games 

Education is a passion and

I can create rhyming words, jingles and 

rap lyrics in a snap.

I also know practical things

I am not good in the kitchen

I can not be trusted around whoopie pies

I love Seinfeld reruns 

Sitting on porches

and vintage shopping adventures

I should never try cutting my own bangs

and I just really don't like eggs 

(honestly, I've tried)

But, this past week--

This 4th week of 52,

I have been thinking about 

other things I know. 

I've been feasting my mind on those

eternal and forever

life bringing thoughts

that have not just made me filled with more things I know.

But, they've actually 

changed my heart

rearranged my thinking

strengthened my resolve

made me stronger

fostered hope

calmed my fears

allowed me to be a better version of me.

I am realizing more and more

these thoughts are really where 

my trust lies

my hope is anchored and

what I use as a filter 

when life gets rough and 

when life is good

when things seem murky

and are crystal clear.

These truths allow me to 

sing praises in storm,

trust Him when it's hard

and acknowledge Him when life's good. 

These truths I know cut right through

that first draft of a story I write

when I am offended

wounded

or angry

These truths create 

confidence when I am weak

resolve when I am strong

perseverance when I am "done"

and endurance every.single.step

These truths are embedded in my heart

and nourish my soul.

These truths could fill up this page

and 100 more .....

no maybe 100,000 more pages

But the ones dear to me this past week,

this 4th week of 52 are

He is mercy.

He is grace.

He is the light in my darkness.

He is in control.

He knows me better than anyone.

He delights in me.

In him, I have no shame.

He speaks to me and I must listen

He guides me.

He protects me. 

I can trust His plan for me.

He wants to use me. 

He is a promise keeper.

I can't do anything to get Him to love me more.

He has called me and given me purpose

These truths have

astounded me and 

grounded me

changed my outlook 

rearranged my attitude

made me wiser

and made me content

to live this life--

this year of 52

trusting Him.

It's the best thing I could ever know!

“I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” (Psalm 121:1-8)