52 Weeks of 52: Week 19

June 3, 2020
Week 19

As my children leave the nest

spread their wings

and begin that journey of 

growing up

being on their own

adulting...

I too start a new chapter.

The chapter of adult children

I am still the Mom

They are still the daughter 

But things change

Two of my gems have spread their wings

so wide

so much

that we mostly stay connected

through phone calls, texting and snap chat

One of the most exciting things

for me is when

 they come home to visit

It is a different dynamic

when they live so far away

You attempt to cram into 

a short amount of time

whatever you can

whenever you can

But, I love it

The incessant flow of coffee

combined with uninterupted conversations

fills my heart

Our rambling conversations 

peppered with stories of childhood

and tempered with current updates. 

creates large chunks of sitting, talking and 

my favorite ----

laughing

I am thankful for each moment.

It is a transition --

parenting adult children.

As I maneuver this new and unknown territory. 

I still have times 

that I have no idea what I am doing

that I fumble

that I wish I would feel more confident

But I am getting better at giving myself grace

and trying to find the balance 

of listening, talking and sharing.

I sure do love when they come around

when we can be face to face

share hearts

share time

and feel 

More connected

Amazingly---

one thing
that is consistent 

still the same

hasn't changed 

one iota

is the fact that

through all of these changes, rearranges and parental transitions

the Lord still uses

my girls and

my role as a parent to

speak to me

teach me and

make me more like Himself.

After 23 1/2 years,
I am still leaning on Him 

to help me parent.