We were supposed to
have a another driver
in the family by now
But alas, Corona!
In this quarantine
we have taken time to
practice driving
to the store
to Sonic
to wherever is needed
and sometimes wanted
Yesterday, while driving,
I remembered
all of the
pre-practice lessons
down the old driveway
and country gravel roads
It seemed like years ago.
when her feet barely reached the pedals and
she would scoot her seat way up close
and drive on the gravel drive
pretending she was headed somewhere grand
or attempt to park the car at home
(without driving into the side of the house).
In those moments,
her being 16 seemed
far far away
She would often remind me of the
years
months
and days
of when it was going to happen
At the time -- it didn't seem even possible.
But, as time always does
it marches on
keeps going
never stops
As we drove,
my mind traveled down
the road of nostalgia
"I can't believe she's 16"
"One more in the house"
"But that's only for 2 more years"
The thoughts tumbled into my brain
one by one
Eventually, giving me a feeling of grief
down to the pit of my soul.
I found myself wanting
all of them to be young again
all of them to be home again
all of them to stay young
In that exact moment
a phrase
from a song
playing in the car
played carefully into my heart.
Your love will not run emptyA stillness came over my thoughts
Your love's a well that will never run dry
Your love will not run empty
Your love grows sweeter and sweeter with time
A peace invaded my soul
This moment
was a game changer
a mind rearranger
a mindset maker
a joy bringer
These moments of motherhood
having them home -- all of it
I treasure deeply
There is a natural mourning
that takes place
as these days seem fleeting--
and that's OK.
I will endeavor to
embrace each day
find joy in each day
with a willingness to know --
they are changing.
I have so much love in my heart for
these precious daughters of mine.
But, far greater, than this love
I have for my three gems is the
great love He has for me.
This love will never disappoint
This love will never run empty
This love is always there
Sweeter and sweeter with time.
This love is eternal.
And I am thankful.
"Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever."Psalm 136:26
Song Lyrics: Maverick City "You Are Loved"
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